How can I be

How can I be the one who carries
the age and the weight of the old
Enough dreams to press against my shoulders
When we all head towards the cold;

And how can I be still smiling when
a pretty ghost like you - hides away,
Beneath the clouds, beneath my breath;
How can you think I'm okay..;

Caught in my own twist of fate,
Before me I shall stand clear.
Unmanned, the weapons pointing at me,

Aim... Fire! screams the ghost in my mind
But instead, they hit the trophy collection
in my head.
You were the one that got away...

Ode to Joy ( I )

God - my room is so beautiful
When I'm stuck to the ceiling,
Making it so meaningful,
Filled with a pleasured feeling...

'N' my God,
your eyes shine like fire!..
Wish I could be burning
The gas and fly higher,
(Always higher...
Like water and fire...)

It's so intense, it makes me free
From all the freedom I thought I had...
Counting backwards from five to three
Waking up in the hospital bed...

They tell me my bike is in pieces
And I smile cause she's never gone,
I'll spend months repairing the leaches
of my Sade, my pretty girl, the One.

Insignificant

Mother, there's so much that I see in you
That sometimes, when you let me down
I go numb and it feels like nothing can hurt me
Like you do.

Love, such a blindfold, turn me into a blind fool
When all I wanted was someone to trust,
Someone to care about, to listen... if I break down
And cry.

My friends, you all know me so well
And yet at times I feel like a stone
Thrown in the depths of the sea.

The sky, the sky is mine. It gives birth to my dreams.
Sometimes it crushes me with it's weight,
Sometimes it gives me the clouds.

My freedom.

never-ending

11.11

preserve the art of stealing souls, my dear girl.
How can you think that love is going to
just knock at your door,
on a sunny morning?

How can you be the main character
in every fairy-tale that you...
trespass,
instead of settling down?

Where is your love?
And is it true that all the love you put out will return to you -
My god, what have they done to you

And your 'happily ever after'....

This is just another never,
ending...

yet again

It was dark and it was fucking cold,
the teeth clenching against the jaw.

It was late into the night and nobody knows
why everything happened so fast.

Yet again.

If things were better, they would have become worse
If eternity was forever, love wouldn't be loss.

Sneaky thoughts ran through her compact mind
As she stood outside the house of her man

With a king size knife in her hand
Zombies were coming after them.

Yet again, there's no place to hide.
Baby, I'm home.

bloody hell

I'm watching heroes
and all of a sudden, I notice,
through the blinds of my window,
the reddish painting of god
that's supposed to be an evening landscape.
It's been snowing all day long
and now everything is
trapped under a blanket of matte
diamonds. their time is done.
they'll never shine again.
the bleeding sky could make your veins freeze.
it's nature's last call, of death,
as Hell is taking over.
there are monsters under my bed.

feather

Far deep into the night, so close to morning,
I
in the middle of my inner storm
fall off the ocean of our common dreaming...

I can't help but stare at you
for a second and
all is lost
all is gained
all is mine for the taking...
But is that enough? I wonder as I turn away


Lighting a cigarre
The sky seems better now
That you are here,
making me complete(ly)
forsaken (,) thoughts run around like, thousands of bees
Too many words, these damned words in my head...

Too many stars to count
If only sleep wouldn't put a blindfold upon your eyes.

hot persuasion

Against the wall my hands lay still
another. just another
I put my thoughts beside the will
of even being bothered

Another day goes by
I found another lover
All clouds and dreams forbidden though
are hidden, still uncovered

Ahead of me, jumps forth my
resurrected shadow
Without you there is no me,
without me there's no other

Hey there,
You smile at me with your broken teeth
You ask me out
You put a strand of my hair aside and
look me in the eyes

You are a lie

And I'm not fooled
You coffee maker
You airhead
You'd think that we're the best friends

But everything about you is a lie

Colorful sights of evelynn and roses
Harass the fear out of my aching body
I fell asleep once again
And the nurse had to change you...

You're my morphine...

Absurd

Another line, another song
shall I write about
my broken armless love
and yet again, these days are just another
never ending movie

life is unfair when you're so far away
everything is rightfully ours even if
my broken love reacts like a damaged tape
playing over and over in my head;
you
and only you
could have taken me over.

now I'm just a sad pole
that dogs piss at...
like I'm so much more useful to them;
I'm an only lighthouse
at my own sea of crawling events.